I prayed for guidance and learned to trust myself.
I prayed for happiness and realized I am not my ego.
I prayed for peace and learned to accept others unconditionally.
I prayed for abundance and realized my doubt kept it out.
I prayed for wealth and realized it is my health.
I prayed for a miracle and realized I am the miracle.
I prayed for a soul mate and realized I am the One.
I prayed for love and realized it’s always knocking, but I have to allow it in.”
- Jackson Kiddard
So another years has passed...can you believe it??? We are coming up on 2012...thanks for all of you who visit occasionally and read my rants :)
This year has by far had the biggest ups and downs I could ever have imagined. As I was going through some of my old blog posts from late 2010, early 2011, I can really see how far I have come and how much I have grown physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I have been very blessed this past year. Not many people would say that they are happy for the pain that they go through...and really it is hard to say this, but I am very blessed to have come up with a treatment for EDS and potentially other disorders as well.
February-July of this past year (2011) was very hard for me...what am I doing with my life? Why am I so sick all of the sudden? Should I go through with my back surgery, AGAIN? How am I going to work if I am going to have this for the rest of my life, I'm only 25 and I had all of the extra schooling to get attend Doctorate of Physical Therapy School? I had a few large mental breakdowns where I just prayed and asked God to show me why? why me? It just didn't seem fair...I had always "done the right thing," exercised, loved others, gave of my all....Well, God had a plan all along. He blessed me with amazing knowledge and severe determination to grasp many scientific subjects (biology, anatomy, physics, and ultimately metaphysics - supercool stuff). I am not trying to offend anyone or step on any particular religion by talking about "God," so many people try to be politically correct and not talk about religion, but in all truths it explains why we are the way we are today. I have a much bigger picture of what/who God is now...and nothing will shake this belief. I might not act the way most "Christians" are "supposed" to act, and will snap a witty/sarcastic comment at the drop of a hat, while enjoying a margarita...but I know who my Creator is and how by helping educate and show others His love for us through lively a healthy and happy life...
God blessed me with an ability to connect ideas (from astrology/electromagnetic fields/animal migration/you name it), that I (as well as others with EDS) have been seen or been exposed to in order to show how our environment really can control our genetic expression of various traits, both good and bad. I still have my ups and downs, but overall I feel like a new person. Our bodies really are temples...if we put bad vibrations/matter into our body (toxic chemicals/man made unnatural products) into our body, it is going to change the way our meridians and ultimately our DNA is expressed. This is why meditation and focusing on our bodies zero point energy field is so important. This little biological research journey I started after blistering after a CT scan last October 2010, ultimately lead me to a journey into the bodies bioenergy field and ultimately the way sacred geometry works within and around our bodies....Energy is everything. Everything. (find the blog energy matters).The year 2012 will be great...I can feel it with every part of my body. They say everything happens for a reason. It does...whether you see it now, or 20 years from now...there is a unique purpose for everything in your life. So live it to the fullest and be thankful for all you have been given!
Hope everyone has a blessed New Year! :)
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